The Wisdom of Perversity

I should have told. Julie's right: I would have saved dozens of others. Jeff, Julie, Sam, the academy kids, the Huck Finn boys, everyone else was ignorant or greedy or scared or confused or overwhelmed by bullies, but I was strong enough-I could've pushed him away. I did push him away. I saved myself and let everyone else suffer. Me and the god of creation-we're the villains of this story. Brian and Jeff were best friends, growing up together in New York City in the late 1960s.
Then something happened that drove a wedge between them, ending both their friendship and their childhood, something that neither ever spoke about .