I Wish You Were Here - James Jones Book, #1

When James Jones realizes that he has been fooled and lied to by his mother and lover for years, he does not only discover who he actually loved in his entire life but finds himself in sexual-idendity crisis. 44 years old homosexual salesman contacts his ex but her eleven years old number does not work, goes to the hospital where she used to nurse but cannot find her. He hires private eye who soon reports that she is no longer in the UK. James Jones tries to heal himself with alcohol until one day his mother tells him what really happened eleven years ago after losing her dear husband to cancer.
James immediately  flies to Istanbul and his adventure for love and truth begins.