Eating Your Words

This is my 60th year and this book has taken eight years to write. I have also been struggling to manage a condition called M. E. and Fibramyalgia in that time. I believe M. E is a direct link to my experiences as a child and my desire to be accepted. My adult life became so painful, that I had to change or die. I know now thateverything that happened has shaped me into the person I am today. We are all a child of the universe, spiritual beings in human form.
Born with God's unconditional Love and here to learn our life lessons. Now I can walk safely in the knowledge that I matter and I am loved. God loves us always even when we don't know he is there that is when we are carried. This book and my dream is that I can make a small difference by sharing my experences. This book is about some of my experiences with eating and how I overcame the cruel way food controlled my life.
I was addicted to food and only I know how painful my life was as a result of yo-yo dieting, binge eating and the love hate relationship I had with food spanning over most of my adult life. My addiction to food was just a symptom of a deeper issue I needed to resolve. The need to gain some control as I tried to please everyone was immense and I ended up pleasing no-one, it was a nightmare. Today I am healthily aware that food is to nourish the body and do not use it as a form of abuse.
I used food as an emotion comforter trying to stuff down how I felt. Food can never fill an emotion or spiritual hole. My journey has been painful and long. I am relieved that I now understand and am able to take responsibility for my life and my choices instead of being a victim and a reactor to life via food. No one is to blame for what has happened to me during my life and that includes me. I do not play the blame game.
I make healthier choices and understand that my choices have consequences to myself and my loved ones. I have learned new skillsto cope with life. I realize I gave everyone the one thing I needed, unconditional love. I dedicate this book to my mum and dad, who truly did their very best for me giving me Susan Dickinson, the precious gift of life. You are with me always.