Can't Wait To Be Resurrected - Can't Wait To Be Dead, #3

HarkerThis is undoubtedly the worst situation I've ever been in. Somehow I have managed to become both dead and undead simultaneously. My life continues to be one giant oxymoron and there's nothing I can do about it; at least not as long as Cooper keeps me locked up. He thinks I'm dangerous, but the only person in danger here is him if he doesn't let me out of this cage. If I don't figure out how to fix this mess, Ellie is going to kill me.
No pun intended.  EllieEmptiness. Where my heart once beat is now hollow; totally barren. That space reserved inside my ribs is vacant without Harker. What's the point of forever now if I have to do forever alone? Even worse, I have to pretend like everything is fine. I have to pretend like he doesn't come to me in my dreams every night and kill me. And to top it all off, there's still a raging lunatic out there that's actually trying to kill me, my friends, and the rich jerk that's in love with me.
This whole vampire thing sucks.