Call It What You Want - Straight Guys, #12

JoshI never expected to love a guy. I was just trying to return my ex-girlfriend's dog to her after she dumped me for... it's a long story. I ended up getting a massage from her former masseur. Then something really weird happened. I never felt like that before. Not about a man, not about anybody. Why can't I stop thinking about Alan: his reassuring voice, his salt-and-pepper stubble, and how secure I feel in his hands?I didn't think I was gay, but Alan is amazing.
He's so caring. Maybe I'm just lonely and deluding myself. Or maybe I really am falling in love. AlanI'm not going to be anybody's plaything. Not again."Straight" guys. I've learned to stay away from them. Once the guilt hits, they cut and run. I thought it would be different with Josh. It wasn't. Serves me right for thinking a younger guy could consider me relationship material. I don't need any more hurt in my life.
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm starting to love Josh. Call It What You Want is a 32, 000-word feel-good romance of two men discovering love where they never expected it. May contain an English bulldog, beginner's luck, bacon cheeseburgers, and a very adoptable ten-year-old boy.